Never Grow Up

One of the hardest things about being a mom (for me anyway) is that the littles grow up way too fast! There are days I want to tuck one under each arm and crawl beneath a rock to protect them from the world and hold them near my chest and never let go.
The emotions of pregnancy have been getting me a lot lately. You know....the crying for reasons you can't explain (mostly because you don't know). My main reason is that I worry that I won't be "enough" for all of them--M&M&M (maybe that should be my word for 2011--enough--and believing that I am).
M&M have been so big lately and amaze Brandon and I every day by what they can say and do.

For instance:
They are totally in to rubber stamping now since I brought my rubber stamps home from my parents' house this past weekend. I couldn't believe that the ink pads were still good since I'm pretty sure I got them in middle school. Since they are such well behaved girls (and Hobby Lobby was having a sale) I let them each choose a new stamp for the collection. Maysen chose Ariel and Myah chose Cinderella. Actually they both wanted the Santa Claus one, but I said we should maybe wait until next winter to get that one :) This just seems like a 'big kid' thing to me and they are totally into it!


Also, did you know they are Big Sister Certified? They completed their Big Sister class at the hospital this past Monday. They each made a bib for Baby M, learned how to hold a baby, and learned to change a diaper. They also got a tour of the maternity ward so their next visit there won't be scary. They loved every minute of it!!
These, of course, are their silly smiles (though they think they are awfully cute). And there's not really a size difference between the two....the angle of the camera makes Maysen appear significantly smaller here.


Back to my emotions getting the better of me.....
Today I started sobbing to "Never Grow Old" by Taylor Swift. I'll leave you with her lyrics:

Your little hands wrapped around my finger
and it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
so I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Chorus:
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
and no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
Never grow up

You're in the car on your way to the movies
and you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do
and you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
remember that she's getting older too
and don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJs getting ready for school
Chorus:
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you
Nothing's ever left you scarred
and even though you want to
Please try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
and all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
in a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
It could be simple

Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
and even though you want to
please try to never grow up
Oh don't you ever grow up
Oh never grow up
just never grow up.
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up